it marks the beginning of.. i don’t know.. on this day 2 years ago..i realized that i could not control any part of my life..
it’s been a crazy two years.. that no post on tumblr could even sum up.. i could never explain the ups.. and i definitely could not explain the downs.
thinking about the numbers..just shocks me.. even though i lived it..
in two years:
- i’ve moved twice
- attended three different high schools
- in three different states
- i’ve gone to four funerals
- and two weddings
- i’ve lost three best friends
- but gained another
- i went on my first mission trip
- my brothers went off to college
- i helped my best friend through a dark depression
- i’ve struggled with self-harm
- i lost faith and hope..and ran from God
- i came back to God
- i started to learn how to stand up for myself
- and i’ve learned many life lessons..
but i guess… days like these.. make me miss where i was.. and what it would be like.. but that’s all a ‘what if’ because i’m where i’m supposed to be…